I don't know what is going to happen in the next day, week or month.

I don't know what is going to happen in the next day, week or month.

I don't know how I am going to make it through each month financially without my truck.

I don't know why all this happened.

I don't know if my book will be a success or not.

I don't know if I am going to ever see my beloved truck.

I don't know if I can keep the story alive.

I don't know a lot of things right now. I don't know who is going to be elected president.

I don't know where the money for gas for my van is coming from. I don't kow when I can drive it again because the gas can is on empty.

I don't know if anyone is going to make donations to help me replace my truck. I don't know how I will replace it if we don't get some donations.

I don't know how donations will affect my SSI. I don't know what to do about it.

I don't know a lot of things right now.

I do know that I don't want to spend a full 10 minutes writing what I don't know so I am going to stop now.
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I know that I can only deal with how I feel at the current moment.

I know this morning is a new day. I know I need to keep my chin up and try to look at the bright side of things.

I know that my ice cream truck is not my whole life. I do exist without it.

I know that I am a strong woman and I can deal with this just like I have dealt with lots of other tough times in the past. I know that it will get easier as time goes on I know that I can replace it even though I don't know how I will be able to do that at this time.

I know that there are other things I can do that will bring me joy. I know that I will discover them eventually.

I know that things happen for a reason and I just haven't figured out yet what the reason is for this one.

I know that I need to write my book. I know that I am off to a good start with my outline.

I know I have many talents.

I know that lots of people are praying that I find my truck.

I know that God did not want this to happen to me and he probably has something even better planned for me in the future. I know that I will survive.

I know that the jerks that took it will eventually get what is coming to them in one way or another even if it is like someone said on the face book comments just with a lot of bad karma. Knowing that makes me feel a little bit better.

I know I want to think about other things besides my stolen ice cream truck. I also know that the kids at the schools will miss me this spring if I do not get my truck back. Oh well. I guess we will deal with that when the time comes.

I know that I can do whatever I feel works best for me and right now that is writing. I really need to write right now. It is like a therapy for me to get the feelings I don't want out of my mind and onto paper.

I need to dig into the subconscious thoughts that are holding me hostage. I need to take them and filter them out so I can move on with my life.

I need to have a place to vent them. I don't have a lot of close personal friends. My ice cream customers were my friends. I will miss them. There is another reason that the theft hurts so much, I need to build myself a better group of support.

I know that I will be able to get past this; it just is still so fresh in my mind. I know that I am tough I will not let those jerks ruin me.

I know that I am a good mom even though I have doubt at times. I know that my kids love me, they actually adore me. Most of their friends like me too.

I know that someday I will understand all this. I know that I don't have control over everything that happens.

I know that I can only deal with how I feel at the current moment.

I know that right now I am happy to be writing on my computer.

I know I need to focus on what I am grateful for today.

I know that it is good that we have a warm home and another vehicle to get around with.

I know that my ice cream truck is out there somewhere and it can still turn up someday.

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I don't remember Being Happy When I was a Kid!

I don’t remember the date of the last day I drove my ice cream truck. This bothers me. I know it was sometime in November.

I don't remember why this is important to me. I don't remember the last ice cream item I sold when I was driving. I don't remember why I am writing this.

I don’t remember lots of stuff from when I was a kid. I don’t remember being happy when I was a kid. I wasn't happy most of my life.

I guess that is why my ice cream selling and the joy and happiness it gave me was so important. It was like feeling the joy I never felt when I was little. I really want to have that joy and feeling again. I don’t remember being that happy kid that runs up to buy an n ice cream from me.

I see young girls and wonder what their life is like for them. I don’t remember being that age. I don’t remember feeling joy as a kid, or even as a young adult. I want to feel that joy again.

I want to live each day being happy I really am in a weird mood with this writing.
I don’t know what to write about so I am just rambling now.

I do remember joy from creating things. I used to really love to sew and now I don’t seem to find time to do that anymore.

I really think maybe I should start to do more of that again.
I am very scattered in my interests.

I have too many things going and am not very organized.

I am putting all my writing out there in hopes someone will comment and help me figure out where I am at. I really want to succeed in my life at something.

I don't feel like much of a success in my life at anything. Maybe that is why my ice cream truck is so important.

I was a success at that. I can understand from this perspective why most people do not understand the pain that I am suffering because it is gone.

It isn't as important, they cannot relate to what it means to me.

I guess with that understanding, I should be able to deal with it better. I guess only time will tell on that one huh.

It is amazing what comes out of you when you force to write for a certain time. I don’t remember the last time I did morning pages.

This is just like morning pages but I can attempt it anytime of the day. Thank you Natalie Goldberg for this.

I am excited to read the rest of her book. I got through the first two chapters and decided her suggestions about writing rules would make a pretty neat little piece of software.

I am still in the mode for that. I can see myself using this software quite often. I wonder if anybody else will find it as useful as me. There goes the timer wow 10 minutes done already.
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